I'm not sure where I saw that Proverbs31 was doing the Made To Crave study, but I knew I was meant to see it. I have attempted to do the study on my own in the past, but I didn't get very far with it. So I signed up. I felt God tugging at my heart when I discovered the optional blog portion of the study. I know He wanted me to step out of my comfort zone and participate, not just by commenting, but blogging.
When I typed out my first blog I realized that God was showing me what I was lacking and what He wanted from me. He wanted ALL of me. Not the "me" that the world sees, but the unfiltered, vulnerable me. So as I typed I held nothing back. I thought I would feel exposed. I was surprised to feel free. My chains were gone. I began to see what it was I was lacking. I did everything on the surface, but was afraid to dig deeper. I was afraid of what I would find. I had the illusion I was in control. I needed to live the scriptures. Have conversations with God, not just grocery list prayers. I needed to expose myself and participate in my Bible studies. In my women's study at church we are studying Gideon. I am finding parallels between Made To Crave, Gideon and myself.
I was encouraged to personalize a piece of scripture. I chose Isaiah 43:18-19.
Forget past attempts, they are nothing compared to what I am doing in you. I am creating something new. See, I have already begun. I am making a path for you through the desert and I have made streams to quench your thirst.The scale my not say anything different. That's OK. I no longer depend on a number to define me. I feel lighter than I have in years. Isn't He amazing?